Dec 16, 2010
Idah..
Aku bali kereta baru last friday keluar. Ive received my very first salary, and at the same time menerima berita about bapa tua. He's with u and buntak now..
I miss the three of you :(
dec 2, 2010
Ive been wondering why adik-beradik boleh tidak bertegur sapa selama beberapa hari, atau mungkin berbulan. I still couldnt get the myth about this yet.
This is something I would say I regretted so much, bila sampai waktu-waktu akhir I didnt talk much to her. We both know the reason why, but even after she apologize I couldnt say a word to her like before.. anymore. That was strange, really.. as she was my BFF since forever.
At least before she bid me goodbye, I said to her something that makes her happy. Only then I realize that was the last thing I said to her. I shouldve said I love her so much.
Destiny. Yes. It was all written. I feel this world is up side down without her. This is like an emotional rummage to all of us. Living life without her is harder than I thought it would be. Every single thing in this house will remind us about her.
Oct 27, 2010
I knew that we shouldnt hate people this way.. but with very obviously strong reasons I would say I wouldnt pass. I know it had been really hard for you, or maybe because of some kind of special giving or treats from that person you wouldnt want to break that particular persons heart. But can you think head straight, that we are family..? I know "'berat mata memandang & mendengar, berat lagi bahu memikul" and kamu yg merasa semua atu.. Tapi compared to that person, siapa yg lebih rapat dgn kamu? Siapa yg lebih rapat dgn Idah? Banyak bad things yg ia cerita sepanjang drg couple ia selalu cerita at me.. That's our secret I wouldnt tell.. Tapi I promise I knew 'him' more than apa yg nampak masane.. Kamu tau why I did this right? Because I truly love kamu, kasih syg keluarga ane lain.. Walaupun nda nampak.. (jgn kambang bulu k) but its the truth. we share the same blood darling,I can feel exactly what you felt all this time. Everytime before sleep I always imagine how is it like to be in ur situation.. Its not a dream but a nightmare.. I wish that I can turn back time but we couldnt. This is fated and what destiny makes us into. We shouldnt blame anyone yet pray, pray and pray. Ok?
I hope that eventhough there is thousand or even billion people love / LIKE what they had been up to, i truly hope that I wouldnt see you are one of them. Please understand our mother, eventhough she's like that but she is our mum, sampai akhirat. Mum vs. That person -for me, bagai langit dengan bumi. ;D i hope kamu dpt stop hurting and be understanding.. For the sake of our family.. One day, if kamu masih ingat kata2 ane, you will look back.. Whose the most important people on our life.. Family ofcourse! Just banyak doakan untuk Idah, buntak, bapatua and keluarga tane, semoga tane dapat jumpa lagi di syurga dan tinggal disana selamanya.. Amin. Amin yarabbal alamin.
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